OMG....

The past few days I have been on edge....I HATE IT! I feel so bad when I have such little patience with Zayne....I am hoping everything around me and my family will chill down and relieve all the added stress that has been swarming around us the past month or so... I know I need to try harder to be a more patient and understanding mom, but it is SO hard when Z walks up to me with poop down his leg singing and dancing thinking it is fun, and poop all over the carpet...but I need to learn to refocus and remember he is just a baby, he doesn't get that I HATE cleaning up poop, he just is a kid being a kid, or should I say a boy being a boy...

I am going to start this week, well from this moment on, trying to refocus my anxious/stressed attitude into gratitude. I need to remember how lucky I am to have Zayne in my life and to have such a great support with my family. I know I have many decisions to make in the future and it is nice to know my family will support me and let me know what they think so I can make the right decisions.

I am excited to start focusing more on me and Zayne as our own little family. I am going to start doing our own little FHE tonight, and every Monday, I have been wanting to do this, but have always put it off...not any more though.

Zayne has begun hitting, spitting and pinching...UGH! So I guess I need to sit down and make some rules and consequences to start enforcing...

Well until next time......

Day 3

Day 3 went GRREAT! Zayne is really getting the hang of it and likes going on the potty. He went the whole night without going and woke up and went in the potty. I am happy he is doing so good. It is an all or nothing kinda thing. And diapers are NOT an option for him. I tell him his pull ups he wears to sleep in are night time underwear, that way he doesn't think of them as diapers, hence thinking it is ok to pee in them. He had one accident that SUCKED (won't go into details), involved me cleaning underwear in the toilet (bleh) and scrubbing the bathroom mat (gag)...but that is to expect. Hopefully this week continues to go good.

Day #2: The battle continues

Day 2 of potty training when SO much better than the 1st day. Zayne had a way better attitude and had more fun with it. He did really good at making it to the potty, and even went poop 1.5 times (don't ask about the other 1.5 times) All and all it was a good day there were accidents of course but definitely not the stress from day one. Before we started the potty training I let Zayne pick out his underwear and he picked Spongebob, Diego, and Wonderpets pack. It is funny though cause he wants be be able to see the pic on the underwear so he insist on wearing them backwards. But hey, at least he is wearing them! So far Day 3 is going really good. I will update tomorrow once I see how the WHOLE day goes =)

{ReMeMbEr}

1} Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2} When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3} Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4} Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will. Stay in touch.
5} Pay off your credit cards every month.
6} You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7} Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8} Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
9} Make peace with your past so it won't screw up your future.
10} It's okay to let your children see you cry.
11} Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12}If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
13} Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
14} Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful, or joyful.
15} Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
16} It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
17} When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
18} Burn the candles and wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save if for a special occasion.Today is special.
19} Over prepare, then go with the flow.
20}Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
21} The most important sex organ is the brain.
22}No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
23} Frame every so-called disaster with these words "In five years, will this matter?"
24} Always choose life.
25} Forgive everyone & everything.
26} What other people think of you is none of your business.
27} Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
28} However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29} Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
30} Believe in miracles.
31} Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
32} Growing old beats dying young.
33} Your children get only one childhood.
34} All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
35} Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
36} If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
37} Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
38} The best is yet to come.
39} No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
40} Yield.
41} Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves
42} Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Shoulda just stuck with it the 1st time.....

Potty training the 2nd time around so far SUCKS! I don't know what his deal is but he is off sitting on the toilet and going. Last time I did it he was all over it and loved it, then he got bored and I let it slide....BIG MISTAKE!

The first time he went he peed on a pair of baby pj's I was going through =/

The next time he stood in the bathroom RIGHT BY the toilet and went.

I am going to stick with it this time cause I am SO already over potty training. I may never have another child just to avoid ever having to do this again.

So in summary day 1 of potty training is killing me! Hopefully tomorrow goes better....
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UPDATE: Zayne just ran up to me all excited and told me he had to pee....sure enough! Success! Hopefully all the excitement and sticker got him amp'd up to keep going in the potty! {3:38 p.m.}

Beyond Handsome

Just got Zayne ready for Church today in his new shirt and TIE....so handsome

He KeEpS Me SmiLiNg

::Thought I should write down a few things that make me smile about being Zaynes mommy::

1) When I say I love you Zayne says back "Love you mommy!"

2) I then reply I love you more! Zayne replies "More too!" and this will go on and on for as long as I keep it up =)

3) Whenever he gets hurt he always runs up to me and tells me to "kiss it" to make it better...then after I kiss his owie he immediately stops crying and say "Dank you mommy!" and runs off.

4) His new thing is that everything is to "Hard"... Me: Go get yourself a snack...Zayne: To hard (then I go see and the fruit snacks were to high for him to reach) // Me: Carry this inside for mommy please...Zayne: Can't to hard // it gets annoying sometimes, but mainly it is cute!

5) I love listening to him sing the "SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS" theme song... beyond cute!

6) How when he sees pictures of himself or video of himself he laughs outloud pointing at "Zayne" , He thinks he is so funny!

7) When he gets playing pretend he goes all out, the other night he would act like he was falling off the bed yelling "CARE ME!" Which means SCARE ME! And he does it ALL the time!

8) I LOVE giving him a basket of all the toys he drags downstairs from his room and telling him to clean his room and put everything away, and to sit there and watch him know where EVERYTHING goes just makes me smile and giggle to myself at how big he is getting. He LOVES having his own room.

9) He loves robots and gets so happy every time he sees one on tv or anywhere. There is a robot on a workout machine on State Street in Orem and every time we drive by I tell him to look at the robot, and he smiles as he keeps his eye on it saying "bobot!"

10) Zayne plays SO good with other kids! I absolutely love taking him to play with new kids or old friends and watching them play together, Zayne loves playing with them trying to do what the older kids do, it is so nice to know he is good at getting along with kids and making new friends.

There are so many more things that I love about being his mommy, I get so stressed sometimes with him that it is good to always remember the things that make me smile he does to counteract the things that make me pull my hair out...